Hey world. Not as happy today... I've had so much going on, I don't even know what to think anymore. My tuition for school greater than 40,000$!!! That's a big what the heck moment. I just feel like it isn't worth it anymore and that I should just go back to Texas.
I also found out that I didn't get a cent in fin-aid! I was so mad in general, but mostly at myself. Now, I can't get over that hump to move on. I want to help my parents pay for my school. I don't want them to be in debt or taking out of their retirement just because of me. I'm only a person that they had to raise and take care of. I just feel that I need to do something, but it's hard. There's so much more to this story though.
I'm already preparing myself for what's in store. I started looking at Texas A&M. It's a great school. That's one thing and I can come home a lot more. My whole thought now is what I should do in this situation.
Making decisions is one of things that I truly can't get a full grip on. I hate making the wrong decisions and then I feel bad when everything goes wrong or someone isn't happy. I know that I have to choose what's right, but I do I really know right from wrong? Have I been making all the wrong decisions and this is the consequence I get? I feel guilty? I don't know...
I just don't know anymore...
